Friends Wanted

 My life is a series of long pauses 

That I enjoy mostly by myself.

My trust in humanity is tainted

 and my trust is fickled at best. 

I use to believe I could be an island of one 

and it was ok because

 I could reach out to people at any time. 

To say my social skills are dead 

is putting it nicely but did I ever even nurtured my personality before 

I put it out to pasture to survive.

I would hate to think I didn't try.

I live in my own world of one 

and my mind is a mystery no matter who that information comes from.

To be alone is a pleasure that I use to love and still love but I do wonder if I gave up too soon on humanity. Is being a loner my only reality.

Message if you can relate. 

Also if I spelt amything wrong I'm sorry 

I will buy some fucks tomorrow but right now I have none to give. 

Also If I stopped watering my life does it die. 

Death pays a visit .

 Humbling of Egos as nothing can. 

If Death doesn't humble you

You should reevaluate your grasp on life. 

Death paid a visit and it was sudden and final.

No do overs ,no rainchecks.

The curtain falls on someone's life .

You feel as if life stands still as if everyone is holding their breathe with you.

Life never really stops, people laugh and have great moments when you feel like your world is dying. The world doesn't revolve around you or me. Some day we are going to be paid a visit by death and life will go on without us. 

Nobody isn't  going to care about your issues or your problems then. They become nothing as you become a memory. The Ego is so ridiculously useless for anything yet we grasp onto it with both hands,making it the meaning of life when it doesn't go with us. We are  lost and asleep and death shakes us awake if for a moment to remind us that this isn't real. We are not in control of anything or anyone . We are sheep living in blissful ignorance. 

What is this feeling? 2022

 I am hopeful,it's a new year filled with all it's promises of better. I want to believe it,it's  been such a hard climb up from 2021. I wish I was optimistic enough to believe.

 I am not pessimistic. I hope life hasn't made me so jaded that I cover my eyes from the light. I still hope.

I'm just a survivor and all my survival instincts tingle in acceptance that Our Journey has began. New challenges ahead,new obstacles in my way. I live in a mode of preparation that never ends. I am not dead so I must be surviving still. 👍

 Good luck guys,take time to breathe,take time to be grateful. Find you happiness in the little things. Survive! GROW! Adapt! 

Wash,Rinse,Spin Repeat.